February 2, 1920
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Scott.
Let me write. I am your old friend, Scott, who died a few days ago. I know now what death means and how we are punished for the things done on earth, and I am suffering my share of the penalty. I come to you because you had told me on earth of the future of men who die, and I am now convinced that what you told me is true, although I know very little of what my fate here is. I only know that I am living and suffering and beyond that I do not know anything.
I am glad that I can come to you and hope that you will help me, if possible. I have written (Eugene) Morgan and he promised to help me, and if you only knew how much I need help, you would not hesitate one moment, for I believe that you are my friend.
I realize that I am not in condition to know anything of the truths of religion and there does not seem to be anyone here to help me. How strange that my folks have not met me, for I believe that they must be interested in me, if any dead person can be.
I am tired and must stop.
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Thursday, June 12, 2014
Charles T. Wilson Writes that He Knew Dr. Leslie R. Stone and Seeks His Help to Get Out of Darkness
May 16, 1918
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Charles T. Wilson.
Let me write a few lines. I am the friend of the Dr. (Leslie R. Stone) and knew him some years ago when he was living in Buffalo, N.Y. I was in a hospital where he was engaged in looking after daffy mortals, such as I was.
Well, in those days my mind and my brain did not coordinate, and this I know, for a short time after I passed into spirit life, I found that I had a mind which enabled me to understand things as I had before the awful blank came to me which resulted in my being incarcerated in the hospital.
What a wonderful experience I had after I became liberated from the imprisonment of my mind in a diseased brain. Then everything appeared to me as if I were a new creature, and the happiness which came to me - I mean the happiness that came from my liberated mind - is beyond what you may conceive of. I can suppose that men think that those whose minds are thus blotted out, as it were, by a brain which has ceased to perform its functions must be not unhappy, because they know not the loss of the benefits that a mind in a sound brain affords. But in this supposition, men are mistaken, for while the person thus afflicted may not know of what sound-minded men call "real trouble and worry," yet they have troubles which belong to their diseased brains, and to them these troubles, although they may have no real existence, are just as real as are the troubles of these others who think that they are sane. Trouble is a relative thing, and the real to one, though not real, causes as much unhappiness as do the troubles which are real.
Of course, while I was in the flesh I did not fully understand just what my condition of mind was and many of my vagaries were of such a character as to cause me apparent happiness; and on the other hand, certain other vagaries caused me real suffering. And things of great importance appeared to me with a force that no real existence could surpass.
Shortly after I passed to spirit life, these imaginations left me and with them disappeared the unhappiness, which they caused; and it seemed to me as if my mind had been freed from a great burden, and I became so conscious of the fact that it seemed as if I must be in Heaven or some other place of bliss. But it meant nothing more than my mind finding its real condition, and the recollections of my previous life came to me with all their consequences. And strange as it may seem to you, there were no recollections of anything that happened while I was in the state of mental darkness. Only those things came to my remembrance which were parts of my life before my affliction, and only these latter brought with them a knowledge of good or evil deeds which I had committed.
Since then, I have realized the workings of the laws which controlled my acts of life, and I was happy or otherwise as these laws called for suffering or failed to operate. I have been in the dark planes ever since, though I have made some progress towards the light, or rather the darkness has grown less intense and my sufferings have decreased. My mind has always been alert and nothing has escaped me which was a part of my sane existence while on earth.
I wish that I could find a way to get rid of this darkness and suffering and, as only a few nights ago, I heard that you could help spirits in my condition, I determined to seek your help, and tonight when I saw the Dr. with you, I thought it a good opportunity to ask your help.
Yes: and he says that he will help me, and as he is so very beautiful and bright, I can easily believe that he can help me and I am going with him. So I thank you.
I was Charles T. Wilson and was called Wash.
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Charles T. Wilson.
Let me write a few lines. I am the friend of the Dr. (Leslie R. Stone) and knew him some years ago when he was living in Buffalo, N.Y. I was in a hospital where he was engaged in looking after daffy mortals, such as I was.
Well, in those days my mind and my brain did not coordinate, and this I know, for a short time after I passed into spirit life, I found that I had a mind which enabled me to understand things as I had before the awful blank came to me which resulted in my being incarcerated in the hospital.
What a wonderful experience I had after I became liberated from the imprisonment of my mind in a diseased brain. Then everything appeared to me as if I were a new creature, and the happiness which came to me - I mean the happiness that came from my liberated mind - is beyond what you may conceive of. I can suppose that men think that those whose minds are thus blotted out, as it were, by a brain which has ceased to perform its functions must be not unhappy, because they know not the loss of the benefits that a mind in a sound brain affords. But in this supposition, men are mistaken, for while the person thus afflicted may not know of what sound-minded men call "real trouble and worry," yet they have troubles which belong to their diseased brains, and to them these troubles, although they may have no real existence, are just as real as are the troubles of these others who think that they are sane. Trouble is a relative thing, and the real to one, though not real, causes as much unhappiness as do the troubles which are real.
Of course, while I was in the flesh I did not fully understand just what my condition of mind was and many of my vagaries were of such a character as to cause me apparent happiness; and on the other hand, certain other vagaries caused me real suffering. And things of great importance appeared to me with a force that no real existence could surpass.
Shortly after I passed to spirit life, these imaginations left me and with them disappeared the unhappiness, which they caused; and it seemed to me as if my mind had been freed from a great burden, and I became so conscious of the fact that it seemed as if I must be in Heaven or some other place of bliss. But it meant nothing more than my mind finding its real condition, and the recollections of my previous life came to me with all their consequences. And strange as it may seem to you, there were no recollections of anything that happened while I was in the state of mental darkness. Only those things came to my remembrance which were parts of my life before my affliction, and only these latter brought with them a knowledge of good or evil deeds which I had committed.
Since then, I have realized the workings of the laws which controlled my acts of life, and I was happy or otherwise as these laws called for suffering or failed to operate. I have been in the dark planes ever since, though I have made some progress towards the light, or rather the darkness has grown less intense and my sufferings have decreased. My mind has always been alert and nothing has escaped me which was a part of my sane existence while on earth.
I wish that I could find a way to get rid of this darkness and suffering and, as only a few nights ago, I heard that you could help spirits in my condition, I determined to seek your help, and tonight when I saw the Dr. with you, I thought it a good opportunity to ask your help.
Yes: and he says that he will help me, and as he is so very beautiful and bright, I can easily believe that he can help me and I am going with him. So I thank you.
I was Charles T. Wilson and was called Wash.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
William, Grandfather of the Kaiser, Writes that He Praying for Peace and the War to End
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, William, (Grandfather of the Kaiser).
Let me say a word in response to what has just been written, as I am interested in the war. I am heart and soul in sympathy with the sentiments just expressed, and so anxious for the end to come for my people are suffering so much, and so many of them are coming to the spirit world, their lives all cut off and prevented from performing the missions of their Creator.
I have sympathized much with all the people who are engaged in this war and have tried so hard to influence my own family to bring it to an end, but in vain, for the fire of ambition and the cravings to conquer have ruled them. But I see the end will soon come, and then will also come the
I cannot say more tonight, but that we are all praying for the people of the world and are asking the Father to open up the hearts of the rulers to the inflowing of His Love, and the bringing about of peace. I will close.
William, the Grandfather of the Kaiser.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Nathan Plummer Writes His Experience in the Hells: "It is hard to learn of Heavenly things in Hell."
January 8, 1917
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Nathan Plummer, and I want to say a word.
The Indian tried to stop me, but your wife said let him write, and I am doing so.
Well, I am still in Hell and suffering, and I wish that I could die again, but I cannot and will have to stand it. I can't even be deaf (was very deaf when he lived in the flesh) so that I might escape some of my torments, for I am surrounded by the most hellish beings you can imagine, and I have to listen to them. It is no use trying to fight, for I can't hurt anybody, and they became more annoying when I did try to punch one of them.
It is awful, and so I regret that I did not listen and try to understand what the Doctor (Leslie R. Stone) so often told me when on earth, but now it is too late. I often hear what he says to you now in your conversations, but for some reason I can't quite understand and, besides if I did, these damned ugly spirits would knock all the understanding out of me. It is hard to learn what you call Heavenly things in Hell, and I am so unhappy and see no way to relief.
The Doctor's father (William Stone) talked to me and told me some things that were like what the Doctor told me, and I felt better when he was telling me and some hope came to me, but when I got back into my Hell and saw all the horrors and the shrieking, ugly spirits, I forgot, and the Hell feelings came to me again and I suffered. Oh, if I could only find some relief from these torments!
Well, I will try again, for I know that Mr. Stone is kind and wants to help me, but my trouble is that I doubt if he can, but I will go as you advise and try to believe that he can. I am very thankful to you and the Doctor and will try to hope - anything to get out of this place and away from these devils.
Your wife says I must stop. So good night.
Nathan Plummer
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I, L.R. Stone was present when the above spirit wrote. I was well acquainted with him for several years before he died and often talked to him on the importance of getting the Divine Love in his soul. He was very deaf before entering the spirit world. After he wrote through Mr. Padgett, I told him to look around for my father who is a bright spirit of the Celestial Heavens. The spirit went with my father to receive help and instruction and has now made his progress to the Celestial Heavens.
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Nathan Plummer, and I want to say a word.
The Indian tried to stop me, but your wife said let him write, and I am doing so.
Well, I am still in Hell and suffering, and I wish that I could die again, but I cannot and will have to stand it. I can't even be deaf (was very deaf when he lived in the flesh) so that I might escape some of my torments, for I am surrounded by the most hellish beings you can imagine, and I have to listen to them. It is no use trying to fight, for I can't hurt anybody, and they became more annoying when I did try to punch one of them.
It is awful, and so I regret that I did not listen and try to understand what the Doctor (Leslie R. Stone) so often told me when on earth, but now it is too late. I often hear what he says to you now in your conversations, but for some reason I can't quite understand and, besides if I did, these damned ugly spirits would knock all the understanding out of me. It is hard to learn what you call Heavenly things in Hell, and I am so unhappy and see no way to relief.
The Doctor's father (William Stone) talked to me and told me some things that were like what the Doctor told me, and I felt better when he was telling me and some hope came to me, but when I got back into my Hell and saw all the horrors and the shrieking, ugly spirits, I forgot, and the Hell feelings came to me again and I suffered. Oh, if I could only find some relief from these torments!
Well, I will try again, for I know that Mr. Stone is kind and wants to help me, but my trouble is that I doubt if he can, but I will go as you advise and try to believe that he can. I am very thankful to you and the Doctor and will try to hope - anything to get out of this place and away from these devils.
Your wife says I must stop. So good night.
Nathan Plummer
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I, L.R. Stone was present when the above spirit wrote. I was well acquainted with him for several years before he died and often talked to him on the importance of getting the Divine Love in his soul. He was very deaf before entering the spirit world. After he wrote through Mr. Padgett, I told him to look around for my father who is a bright spirit of the Celestial Heavens. The spirit went with my father to receive help and instruction and has now made his progress to the Celestial Heavens.
Monday, September 23, 2013
Edwin Forrest Writes that He is Commencing to Realize that There Must be a God of Mercy and Love
October 12, 1916
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Edwin Forrest.
Well, Ned, I want to write you a few lines, and as your wife is here and says that I may write, I will do so.
I am glad to say that I am in a much better condition than when I last wrote you, thanks to the help that I have received from her and your grandmother, who came to me a short time ago with such wonderful love and such convincing words of cheer and hope. She is the most wonderful spirit that I have seen, and when she speaks to me it is with such authority and convincing power that I just have to believe and follow her advice or try to do so.
She prays with me at times and as she prays there comes into my soul such wonderful and strange sensations, that I know that something is coming to me that I am not acquainted with, and I feel so much better and everything gets lighter. The darkness seems to leave me and I feel like a new man; and I pray, too, though I scarcely know what it means. But this I know, that a change has come over me and hope comes to me, and with it comes belief that I will get out of my darkness and suffering.
I commence to realize that there must be a God of Mercy and Love, and that He is not inflicting upon me the sufferings that I have endured; and that maybe He will answer my prayers for help and relief from my darkness. Your wife tells me He will and that if I will have faith and pray with all my heart and soul sometime I may become beautiful and happy as she is. It is hard to believe this, but even if I can never become as she is, yet I sometimes think that I may become more beautiful and happier than I am, and I am making the effort.
You pray for me, too. I come to you at times when the other dark spirits come, and I see the effect of your help. I don't understand it, yet I see that these spirits are made better, and I must believe that there is something in what the bright spirits to whom these dark ones go tell them. I am so glad that I can write to you.
No, I have not seen Mr. Miller and don't know where he is. I will act on your advice and try to find him and do as you say, for even though I am not a bright spirit, yet if I can help him I will gladly do so. I will seek him and the next time I write will let you know just what his condition is. So thanking you, I will say good night.
Your old partner friend,
Edwin Forrest
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Edwin Forrest.
Well, Ned, I want to write you a few lines, and as your wife is here and says that I may write, I will do so.
I am glad to say that I am in a much better condition than when I last wrote you, thanks to the help that I have received from her and your grandmother, who came to me a short time ago with such wonderful love and such convincing words of cheer and hope. She is the most wonderful spirit that I have seen, and when she speaks to me it is with such authority and convincing power that I just have to believe and follow her advice or try to do so.
She prays with me at times and as she prays there comes into my soul such wonderful and strange sensations, that I know that something is coming to me that I am not acquainted with, and I feel so much better and everything gets lighter. The darkness seems to leave me and I feel like a new man; and I pray, too, though I scarcely know what it means. But this I know, that a change has come over me and hope comes to me, and with it comes belief that I will get out of my darkness and suffering.
I commence to realize that there must be a God of Mercy and Love, and that He is not inflicting upon me the sufferings that I have endured; and that maybe He will answer my prayers for help and relief from my darkness. Your wife tells me He will and that if I will have faith and pray with all my heart and soul sometime I may become beautiful and happy as she is. It is hard to believe this, but even if I can never become as she is, yet I sometimes think that I may become more beautiful and happier than I am, and I am making the effort.
You pray for me, too. I come to you at times when the other dark spirits come, and I see the effect of your help. I don't understand it, yet I see that these spirits are made better, and I must believe that there is something in what the bright spirits to whom these dark ones go tell them. I am so glad that I can write to you.
No, I have not seen Mr. Miller and don't know where he is. I will act on your advice and try to find him and do as you say, for even though I am not a bright spirit, yet if I can help him I will gladly do so. I will seek him and the next time I write will let you know just what his condition is. So thanking you, I will say good night.
Your old partner friend,
Edwin Forrest
Monday, August 19, 2013
Edwin Forrest, an Old Friend and Law Partner of James E. Padgett, Seeks Help in Getting out of Darkness
June 27, 1916
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Edwin Forrest.
Well I am here again and I am glad to be able to write you for I need your advice so much, as several have told me that you can help me. I am in much darkness and suffering, and don't know just why, but I suppose it is because of my evil habits, and I want to get relief if, possible, so try your best to help me.
Well I understand what you say and will believe that you desire to help me, and I will certainly try to take your advice. So give it to me. Yes, I see some who are like myself and need help as I do.
Yes, now I see some beautiful and bright ones who are so different from what I have ever seen, and as I look they become plainer to me, and I see your wife and she is so beautiful and speaks to me and says that she heard what I said to you and that she is ready and willing to help me, if I will listen to her and try to believe what she says. My, she is lovely and seems too good!
Well, I have heard what you say and you surprise me somewhat in telling me about Taggart and the others, and I will try to do as you say. But before I go, tell me how did you ever get the power to receive my writing and thus communicate. I never knew when on earth that you had this power, and if you had told me, I suppose I would not have believed.
So Ned, I will do as you say, and your wife calls me to her and I am going. So goodbye and believe that I am thankful.
Your old partner and now grateful friend,
Edwin Forrest
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Edwin Forrest.
Well I am here again and I am glad to be able to write you for I need your advice so much, as several have told me that you can help me. I am in much darkness and suffering, and don't know just why, but I suppose it is because of my evil habits, and I want to get relief if, possible, so try your best to help me.
Well I understand what you say and will believe that you desire to help me, and I will certainly try to take your advice. So give it to me. Yes, I see some who are like myself and need help as I do.
Yes, now I see some beautiful and bright ones who are so different from what I have ever seen, and as I look they become plainer to me, and I see your wife and she is so beautiful and speaks to me and says that she heard what I said to you and that she is ready and willing to help me, if I will listen to her and try to believe what she says. My, she is lovely and seems too good!
Well, I have heard what you say and you surprise me somewhat in telling me about Taggart and the others, and I will try to do as you say. But before I go, tell me how did you ever get the power to receive my writing and thus communicate. I never knew when on earth that you had this power, and if you had told me, I suppose I would not have believed.
So Ned, I will do as you say, and your wife calls me to her and I am going. So goodbye and believe that I am thankful.
Your old partner and now grateful friend,
Edwin Forrest
Friday, June 14, 2013
Maurice Smith, a Brother Lawyer of James E. Padgett, Seeks His Help in Getting Out of Darkness
March 19, 1916
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Maurice Smith.
Let me say a word too. As Hay had the opportunity to write I would like to do so, also. I will not detain you long, as I merely want to let you know that I am alive. Well, I am not very happy and am in darkness and suffering and don't see any prospect of relief.
I noticed that as he left you, he was much happier than when he commenced to talk to you, and I thought that maybe you said something to help him, and that you might help me, also. I know you will, if you can.
I saw some spirit who was very bright looking, but I could not see distinctly or recognize him, and I suppose it was some acquaintance of Hay, that you had something to do with his meeting. Well, you surprise me for I did not know that Mr. Riddle was that kind of spirit. I thought that he was like the rest of us lawyers, who all seemed to be grouped together in darkness and suffering, and some say, Hell; but I don't like that word and I shall insist that I am in the darkness only, and, besides if it were Hell, I should see the devil and the fires, etc., which I have never seen.
A long time ago, as it seems to me, I saw Taggart. It must have been when he first came over, but I have not seen him for some time, as he appears to have left us.
Well, you astonish me some for I have never thought that you could help a spirit and, in fact, I am so astonished at the knowledge that I can communicate to you in the way that I do, that I am ready to believe most anything, and I assure you that I am very willing to follow your advice if there is any hope of my changing my condition for a better one.
Yes, I see some spirits, and they certainly are bright and beautiful. They must belong to another sphere, for I don't often see spirits of that kind, and when I do, they don't seem to be quite natural. But, as you have called my attention to them, I see that they are real, and they seem to have looks of love and kindness about them. And now, I see one who is not so bright or beautiful as the others; but he seems to be happy and does not have the darkness surrounding him, and he comes to me and says: "Hello, Maurice, I am glad to see you," and lo, and behold, it is Taggart!
Well, don't this beat the devil! Who would have thought that he could look as he does? And he says he is very happy and wants to help me and will tell me the way to get into a condition similar to his own, and if I want to argue the matter, he is ready to do so. The same old Taggart, ready for an argument. I wonder what he has to say? He says come with him and he will tell me, and I must go.
So thanking you, I will say good night.
Your old friend and fellow lawyer,
Maurice Smith
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Maurice Smith.
Let me say a word too. As Hay had the opportunity to write I would like to do so, also. I will not detain you long, as I merely want to let you know that I am alive. Well, I am not very happy and am in darkness and suffering and don't see any prospect of relief.
I noticed that as he left you, he was much happier than when he commenced to talk to you, and I thought that maybe you said something to help him, and that you might help me, also. I know you will, if you can.
I saw some spirit who was very bright looking, but I could not see distinctly or recognize him, and I suppose it was some acquaintance of Hay, that you had something to do with his meeting. Well, you surprise me for I did not know that Mr. Riddle was that kind of spirit. I thought that he was like the rest of us lawyers, who all seemed to be grouped together in darkness and suffering, and some say, Hell; but I don't like that word and I shall insist that I am in the darkness only, and, besides if it were Hell, I should see the devil and the fires, etc., which I have never seen.
A long time ago, as it seems to me, I saw Taggart. It must have been when he first came over, but I have not seen him for some time, as he appears to have left us.
Well, you astonish me some for I have never thought that you could help a spirit and, in fact, I am so astonished at the knowledge that I can communicate to you in the way that I do, that I am ready to believe most anything, and I assure you that I am very willing to follow your advice if there is any hope of my changing my condition for a better one.
Yes, I see some spirits, and they certainly are bright and beautiful. They must belong to another sphere, for I don't often see spirits of that kind, and when I do, they don't seem to be quite natural. But, as you have called my attention to them, I see that they are real, and they seem to have looks of love and kindness about them. And now, I see one who is not so bright or beautiful as the others; but he seems to be happy and does not have the darkness surrounding him, and he comes to me and says: "Hello, Maurice, I am glad to see you," and lo, and behold, it is Taggart!
Well, don't this beat the devil! Who would have thought that he could look as he does? And he says he is very happy and wants to help me and will tell me the way to get into a condition similar to his own, and if I want to argue the matter, he is ready to do so. The same old Taggart, ready for an argument. I wonder what he has to say? He says come with him and he will tell me, and I must go.
So thanking you, I will say good night.
Your old friend and fellow lawyer,
Maurice Smith
Thursday, May 23, 2013
John H. Padgett Writes and Adds to Ann Rollins' Message on "Who and What is God"
February 25, 1916
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your father.
I have been listening to your Grandmother's* message and was interested in observing the way in which you received it, for it is a deep and important communication of truth that is not generally known to mortals. We in the lower spheres, of course, do not know these truths so extensively as do the spirits of the Celestial Spheres, but I have heard the Master discourse on the subject of God, and what your grandmother wrote you is, in short, what he has explained to us but, of course, in a way that we could better and to a greater extent comprehend the truth than can you.
There is one thing that I have observed in the case of these, who are called scientists and who believe only the material, and also in the case of those who claim to be infidels when they come into spirit life and, that is, that very soon they realize that there is or must be a God, and that their God of nature, or their man-made God, does not supply the word, if I may thus express it, which they find to exist here.
They, of course, do not get a conception of the nature of God in the beginning, but they know very soon after they come over that there is a God - other and different from what they conceived Him to be when they had any conception of Him on earth and when they denied that there was any God, and they soon realize the absolute necessity for there being one. And when they had made man his own God, they see many spirits of men in such conditions of darkness and suffering and helplessness that they readily realize that man is not God.
So I say the first truth that enters their mind and souls when they become spirits is that: "There is a God;" although they do not know His nature and attributes.
So you see there is only one little veil of flesh between the vaunted mind of mortals that proclaim there is no God but nature, or no God at all, and the mind conscious of its weakness and littleness as it exists in the spirit world.
But I must stop writing on this subject or you will think that I am going to write you a lecture, which I don't intend to do now.
With all my love, I am your loving father,
John H. Padgett
*Ann Rollins
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your father.
I have been listening to your Grandmother's* message and was interested in observing the way in which you received it, for it is a deep and important communication of truth that is not generally known to mortals. We in the lower spheres, of course, do not know these truths so extensively as do the spirits of the Celestial Spheres, but I have heard the Master discourse on the subject of God, and what your grandmother wrote you is, in short, what he has explained to us but, of course, in a way that we could better and to a greater extent comprehend the truth than can you.
There is one thing that I have observed in the case of these, who are called scientists and who believe only the material, and also in the case of those who claim to be infidels when they come into spirit life and, that is, that very soon they realize that there is or must be a God, and that their God of nature, or their man-made God, does not supply the word, if I may thus express it, which they find to exist here.
They, of course, do not get a conception of the nature of God in the beginning, but they know very soon after they come over that there is a God - other and different from what they conceived Him to be when they had any conception of Him on earth and when they denied that there was any God, and they soon realize the absolute necessity for there being one. And when they had made man his own God, they see many spirits of men in such conditions of darkness and suffering and helplessness that they readily realize that man is not God.
So I say the first truth that enters their mind and souls when they become spirits is that: "There is a God;" although they do not know His nature and attributes.
So you see there is only one little veil of flesh between the vaunted mind of mortals that proclaim there is no God but nature, or no God at all, and the mind conscious of its weakness and littleness as it exists in the spirit world.
But I must stop writing on this subject or you will think that I am going to write you a lecture, which I don't intend to do now.
With all my love, I am your loving father,
John H. Padgett
*Ann Rollins
Monday, March 25, 2013
Samuel C. Mills, a Former Lawyer, Writes that He is in the Earth Plane but He is Now Learning the Truths that Jesus Taught
December 9, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your old friend and brother Lawyer, Samuel C. Mills:
I have been waiting for some time to have an opportunity to write to you, as I have so often waited and seen other spirits write their messages. Yes, your band, or rather that beautiful wife of yours, told the Indian Guide that I should write, and he consented. He seems to take a great interest in you and is protecting you from the harmful spirits.
Well, I am in what is called the earth plane and I am not very happy, as I have my recollections of so many things that I did on earth which were contrary to the laws of God, and for which I am now suffering some. But I have been fortunate enough to have the help of some very loving and beautiful spirits, who seem to take so much interest in me and in showing me the way to progress out of my darkness and sufferings.
While on earth I was not a very religious man, yet I always reverenced God and things pertaining to religion and believed that there was a better place for those who were truly good to go to.
Of course, in the short time that I have been here, I have learned a number of truths, and as I am very anxious to get out of my condition of darkness, I made a great effort to believe what these good spirits said to me and to learn all that I could about these truths.
I am now believing that Jesus is the saviour of us all by his teachings and love and the great influence he has with the Father.
You certainly are a favored man to be able to receive all these communications from the high spirits who come to you. When on earth I never believed in spiritualism, and I certainly would not have believed that Jesus and his Apostles would write to you, as I now see them do. But how limited is our earth knowledge of these things that pertain to the spirit or, as some say, the unseen world. The opportunities here to learn the truths are so much greater than on earth, if the spirit really desires and makes the effort to learn.
I thank you very much for having permitted me to write and renew my acquaintance. It is a glorious thing to be able to do this, and know, as I know, that only a thin veil of flesh separates mortals from their loved ones. I will not impose longer tonight, but will say with my best love,
I am your old friend and brother,
Samuel C. Mills
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your old friend and brother Lawyer, Samuel C. Mills:
I have been waiting for some time to have an opportunity to write to you, as I have so often waited and seen other spirits write their messages. Yes, your band, or rather that beautiful wife of yours, told the Indian Guide that I should write, and he consented. He seems to take a great interest in you and is protecting you from the harmful spirits.
Well, I am in what is called the earth plane and I am not very happy, as I have my recollections of so many things that I did on earth which were contrary to the laws of God, and for which I am now suffering some. But I have been fortunate enough to have the help of some very loving and beautiful spirits, who seem to take so much interest in me and in showing me the way to progress out of my darkness and sufferings.
While on earth I was not a very religious man, yet I always reverenced God and things pertaining to religion and believed that there was a better place for those who were truly good to go to.
Of course, in the short time that I have been here, I have learned a number of truths, and as I am very anxious to get out of my condition of darkness, I made a great effort to believe what these good spirits said to me and to learn all that I could about these truths.
I am now believing that Jesus is the saviour of us all by his teachings and love and the great influence he has with the Father.
You certainly are a favored man to be able to receive all these communications from the high spirits who come to you. When on earth I never believed in spiritualism, and I certainly would not have believed that Jesus and his Apostles would write to you, as I now see them do. But how limited is our earth knowledge of these things that pertain to the spirit or, as some say, the unseen world. The opportunities here to learn the truths are so much greater than on earth, if the spirit really desires and makes the effort to learn.
I thank you very much for having permitted me to write and renew my acquaintance. It is a glorious thing to be able to do this, and know, as I know, that only a thin veil of flesh separates mortals from their loved ones. I will not impose longer tonight, but will say with my best love,
I am your old friend and brother,
Samuel C. Mills
Sunday, March 10, 2013
St. John Writes That the Spirits Who Have Little Development of Soul Can Help Those Who Have Less Development Than Themselves
November 23, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, St. John, Apostle of Jesus.
I want to tell you tonight about the things that spirits who have not received the Divine Love of the Father do, or have done to them, as you may say, in order to get out of their darkness and suffering and progress to a happier condition.
Well, when these spirits of evil or sinful life first come into the spirit world, they enter what is called the earth plane; and when I say the earth plane I mean those spheres which are nearest the earth and partake very largely of the material. They are received by their friends who may have been with them at the time of their passing, and are, to a certain extent, comforted and made familiar with their surroundings. This may last for a shorter or longer time according as the spirit is capable of understanding his changed condition from mortal to spirit.
After this condition of consciousness is assumed by the spirit, these friends leave him, and some guiding spirit, whose duty it is to perform the task, shows or conducts him to the place or plane which he is fitted to occupy and which, by the workings of the Law of Equalization, he must occupy. In this place he is surrounded by and must associate with spirits of a similar condition of development as his own, until some change comes to him which fits him for a higher place.
Of course, this change may come in a short time, or it may require a longer time to bring it about; all this depending upon the realization by the spirit as to what his condition is and the fact that there is a possibility of progressing. Of himself, he cannot bring about this change, for the law which fixes his place or condition does not cease to operate until there is called into operation another law which permits and helps the change.
The only way in which this changed condition can be brought about is by the influences of other spirits of a more enlightened and higher position than that of the spirit whose position I have spoken of. These influences do not necessarily come from spirits who have received the New Birth, but may come from spirits who know nothing about it, and who have only the natural love, and even they may not necessarily be of a high order of development of either intellect or soul. But they must be in such condition that they know and are able to tell the lower spirit of the possibility of progress and the way in which it can be made.
Many spirits, who are themselves in a dark position or condition, can help others who are in a darker condition, just as on earth a student of a lower class in school may not be able to teach all that is taught or may be learned in that school, yet he can teach those, in a lower class than his own, things that he has learned in progressing to his own class.
All spirits have a work to do, and these spirits of little development are engaged in teaching those of lesser development the way to get in the same condition as those who teach are in. But, of course, these latter cannot teach anything that belongs to a higher condition than the one in which they are. In such cases, the progress is very slow for many reasons, and it sometimes takes centuries for a spirit to progress from this very low plane to a higher one where only the lowest grade of happiness exists.
So you see that in order to help these dark spirits, it is not necessary for the helping spirit to be one who has in his soul the Divine Love. But all this means that the spirit who is helped in this way cannot possibly progress higher than its natural love and moral conscience and intellectual endowments will permit - no progression of the soul to a realization of the Divine Love of the Father, or to the Celestial Spheres.
This is important for you and all mankind to know, for the reason that you and others may learn what the true soul development means, and how effectively spirits possessing this soul development may help all other spirits, good or bad. Aside from this, you may suppose that the spirits, who hear you talk at the séances where all kinds and conditions of spirits congregate and promise to help both mortals and spirits, may not be able to do so because some are in a dark and low condition themselves. Yet all spirits may help other spirits, to some extent, who are in a lower condition, and sometimes in the beginning of the progression, more satisfactorily than can the higher spirits, because these dark spirits who try to help the darker spirits, are more in harmony with them, and the darker spirits will listen to them with more interest and belief that they can help them.
But this is a help that does not work in such a way as to cause the spirits who are so helped to lose their desires and recollections very rapidly and to progress into the higher planes without the great suffering that you have been told of.
I thought I would write this to you for the reason that you might not, in your investigations and teachings of the spirit life, give due importance to the possibility of one dark spirit helping another. All the phases of mediumship, when honestly conducted, have their proper places and work in God's plan of redemption and none of them must be considered as useless or without special design.
Of course, the above mentioned phase of assistance to spirits is of the lowest form and is merely preliminary to the great work which the higher spirits do in carrying out the great plan of redemption, which has been explained to you. The important work is that of the spirits who know what the Divine Love of the Father is, and what fits spirits and mortals for the enjoyment of the great happiness which obtains only in the Celestial Spheres, and also in the soul spheres, to a lesser extent.
When a spirit who is dark learns of this Great Love and strives to obtain It, and earnestly prays for the help of the Holy Spirit, which is God's messenger of Love, it will progress much more rapidly, and its sufferings and darkness will leave it sooner and greater happiness will come to it.
But still I say, the work of these lower spirits, that I have spoken of, is a great work and must not be underestimated. So remember what I have written and give due credit to this work.
I will not write more, but will with all my love and blessings say good night.
Your brother in Christ,
St. John
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, St. John, Apostle of Jesus.
I want to tell you tonight about the things that spirits who have not received the Divine Love of the Father do, or have done to them, as you may say, in order to get out of their darkness and suffering and progress to a happier condition.
Well, when these spirits of evil or sinful life first come into the spirit world, they enter what is called the earth plane; and when I say the earth plane I mean those spheres which are nearest the earth and partake very largely of the material. They are received by their friends who may have been with them at the time of their passing, and are, to a certain extent, comforted and made familiar with their surroundings. This may last for a shorter or longer time according as the spirit is capable of understanding his changed condition from mortal to spirit.
After this condition of consciousness is assumed by the spirit, these friends leave him, and some guiding spirit, whose duty it is to perform the task, shows or conducts him to the place or plane which he is fitted to occupy and which, by the workings of the Law of Equalization, he must occupy. In this place he is surrounded by and must associate with spirits of a similar condition of development as his own, until some change comes to him which fits him for a higher place.
Of course, this change may come in a short time, or it may require a longer time to bring it about; all this depending upon the realization by the spirit as to what his condition is and the fact that there is a possibility of progressing. Of himself, he cannot bring about this change, for the law which fixes his place or condition does not cease to operate until there is called into operation another law which permits and helps the change.
The only way in which this changed condition can be brought about is by the influences of other spirits of a more enlightened and higher position than that of the spirit whose position I have spoken of. These influences do not necessarily come from spirits who have received the New Birth, but may come from spirits who know nothing about it, and who have only the natural love, and even they may not necessarily be of a high order of development of either intellect or soul. But they must be in such condition that they know and are able to tell the lower spirit of the possibility of progress and the way in which it can be made.
Many spirits, who are themselves in a dark position or condition, can help others who are in a darker condition, just as on earth a student of a lower class in school may not be able to teach all that is taught or may be learned in that school, yet he can teach those, in a lower class than his own, things that he has learned in progressing to his own class.
All spirits have a work to do, and these spirits of little development are engaged in teaching those of lesser development the way to get in the same condition as those who teach are in. But, of course, these latter cannot teach anything that belongs to a higher condition than the one in which they are. In such cases, the progress is very slow for many reasons, and it sometimes takes centuries for a spirit to progress from this very low plane to a higher one where only the lowest grade of happiness exists.
So you see that in order to help these dark spirits, it is not necessary for the helping spirit to be one who has in his soul the Divine Love. But all this means that the spirit who is helped in this way cannot possibly progress higher than its natural love and moral conscience and intellectual endowments will permit - no progression of the soul to a realization of the Divine Love of the Father, or to the Celestial Spheres.
This is important for you and all mankind to know, for the reason that you and others may learn what the true soul development means, and how effectively spirits possessing this soul development may help all other spirits, good or bad. Aside from this, you may suppose that the spirits, who hear you talk at the séances where all kinds and conditions of spirits congregate and promise to help both mortals and spirits, may not be able to do so because some are in a dark and low condition themselves. Yet all spirits may help other spirits, to some extent, who are in a lower condition, and sometimes in the beginning of the progression, more satisfactorily than can the higher spirits, because these dark spirits who try to help the darker spirits, are more in harmony with them, and the darker spirits will listen to them with more interest and belief that they can help them.
But this is a help that does not work in such a way as to cause the spirits who are so helped to lose their desires and recollections very rapidly and to progress into the higher planes without the great suffering that you have been told of.
I thought I would write this to you for the reason that you might not, in your investigations and teachings of the spirit life, give due importance to the possibility of one dark spirit helping another. All the phases of mediumship, when honestly conducted, have their proper places and work in God's plan of redemption and none of them must be considered as useless or without special design.
Of course, the above mentioned phase of assistance to spirits is of the lowest form and is merely preliminary to the great work which the higher spirits do in carrying out the great plan of redemption, which has been explained to you. The important work is that of the spirits who know what the Divine Love of the Father is, and what fits spirits and mortals for the enjoyment of the great happiness which obtains only in the Celestial Spheres, and also in the soul spheres, to a lesser extent.
When a spirit who is dark learns of this Great Love and strives to obtain It, and earnestly prays for the help of the Holy Spirit, which is God's messenger of Love, it will progress much more rapidly, and its sufferings and darkness will leave it sooner and greater happiness will come to it.
But still I say, the work of these lower spirits, that I have spoken of, is a great work and must not be underestimated. So remember what I have written and give due credit to this work.
I will not write more, but will with all my love and blessings say good night.
Your brother in Christ,
St. John
Saturday, March 2, 2013
John G. Carlisle Writes That He is Suffering and in Darkness and Asks For Help
November 20, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
Let me write, John G. Carlisle.
I merely want to say that I need help so much. I am suffering so very much and in such darkness, and I can find no relief from my condition. So please tell me if you can help me. Some spirits here say that you have helped others and I want help if it can be found.
It is not necessary for me to tell you who I am, or what I did on earth, for you as many others in Washington knew just what kind of life I led when I lived in that city, as I was a prominent man and my actions were watched and known by a great many.
Suffice it to say that I am now paying the penalties for my evil life, and I am in torture and such intense darkness and don't know the way to relief if there is any for me. I want you to help me, and if you can and will do so, I will never forget you. I will come and claim your promise; and if you can succeed, I will be everlastingly obliged.
Yes, I have seen him (Cleveland) on several occasions and have talked with him, but he seems to be in a better condition than I am for some reason that I don't understand. We were very much alike in certain particulars when on earth, but he seems to have found some means by which he is enabled to live in a brighter state than I do.
No, I have never met Mr. Riddle and don't know that he is in the spirit world, but from what you say I suppose he is. But why do you ask? You know that I knew a great many of the public men, and so very many better than I knew Riddle and, hence, I am a little anxious to know why you ask me if I have seen him. Well, you make me anxious to meet him and should I do so, I will remember what you say.
Well, I have looked and I see some beautiful spirits but I don't know any to them. I have asked who they are, and one says she is your wife and what a beautiful spirit she is and how good and loving her appearance. I wonder why she is of such beauty! I have asked her, and she says she will try and has left me.
Well, he is here and how surprised I am, for he is beautiful and bright, too, and seems to have so much love about him. What is the cause of all this wonderful beauty and brightness?
Well, he has spoken to me and tells me that he is glad to see me, and that he is willing and anxious to help me out of my darkness and wants me to go with him for a talk, and I am going. I will try to do as you say and will certainly make every effort to understand this great mystery.
So my friend, I must leave you, but in doing so I want to express to you my gratitude for what you have done and for your kind thoughts. So believe me when I say that I am very grateful.
Goodbye,
Your Friend,
John G. Carlisle
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
Let me write, John G. Carlisle. I merely want to say that I need help so much. I am suffering so very much and in such darkness, and I can find no relief from my condition. So please tell me if you can help me. Some spirits here say that you have helped others and I want help if it can be found.
It is not necessary for me to tell you who I am, or what I did on earth, for you as many others in Washington knew just what kind of life I led when I lived in that city, as I was a prominent man and my actions were watched and known by a great many.
Suffice it to say that I am now paying the penalties for my evil life, and I am in torture and such intense darkness and don't know the way to relief if there is any for me. I want you to help me, and if you can and will do so, I will never forget you. I will come and claim your promise; and if you can succeed, I will be everlastingly obliged.
Yes, I have seen him (Cleveland) on several occasions and have talked with him, but he seems to be in a better condition than I am for some reason that I don't understand. We were very much alike in certain particulars when on earth, but he seems to have found some means by which he is enabled to live in a brighter state than I do.
No, I have never met Mr. Riddle and don't know that he is in the spirit world, but from what you say I suppose he is. But why do you ask? You know that I knew a great many of the public men, and so very many better than I knew Riddle and, hence, I am a little anxious to know why you ask me if I have seen him. Well, you make me anxious to meet him and should I do so, I will remember what you say.
Well, I have looked and I see some beautiful spirits but I don't know any to them. I have asked who they are, and one says she is your wife and what a beautiful spirit she is and how good and loving her appearance. I wonder why she is of such beauty! I have asked her, and she says she will try and has left me.
Well, he is here and how surprised I am, for he is beautiful and bright, too, and seems to have so much love about him. What is the cause of all this wonderful beauty and brightness?
Well, he has spoken to me and tells me that he is glad to see me, and that he is willing and anxious to help me out of my darkness and wants me to go with him for a talk, and I am going. I will try to do as you say and will certainly make every effort to understand this great mystery.
So my friend, I must leave you, but in doing so I want to express to you my gratitude for what you have done and for your kind thoughts. So believe me when I say that I am very grateful.
Goodbye,
Your Friend,
John G. Carlisle
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
John Critcher, a Former Lawyer Who Knew James E. Padgett, Writes About His Disappointment on Entering the Spirit World
November 7, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, John Critcher.
You must remember me for I had my office in the same building with you, when I practiced law.
Well, I am in a condition that gives me considerable happiness and, yet, I am not in that state of happiness, which I expected to have when I was on earth.
As you know, I was an Episcopalian and tried to observe strictly the doctrines and formalities of my church and expected when I died to go to Heaven and find rest and nothing to make me unhappy. But I was mistaken in this, and I found myself in the earth plane of the spirit world and had to undergo some suffering and darkness and did not find the Heavenly rest that I expected.
But I have progressed since I came over and am now happier and in more light.
I was passing, when I saw the light that comes from your room, and looked in and saw you, and asked permission to write, and your band consented and so I am writing. No, thank you, only sometimes you can give me a kind thought and good wish?
So thanking you, I am
Your friend,
John Critcher
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, John Critcher.
You must remember me for I had my office in the same building with you, when I practiced law.
Well, I am in a condition that gives me considerable happiness and, yet, I am not in that state of happiness, which I expected to have when I was on earth.
As you know, I was an Episcopalian and tried to observe strictly the doctrines and formalities of my church and expected when I died to go to Heaven and find rest and nothing to make me unhappy. But I was mistaken in this, and I found myself in the earth plane of the spirit world and had to undergo some suffering and darkness and did not find the Heavenly rest that I expected.
But I have progressed since I came over and am now happier and in more light.
I was passing, when I saw the light that comes from your room, and looked in and saw you, and asked permission to write, and your band consented and so I am writing. No, thank you, only sometimes you can give me a kind thought and good wish?
So thanking you, I am
Your friend,
John Critcher
Friday, December 28, 2012
Ross Perry, James E. Padgett's Late Friend, Explains Why He Committed Suicide
October 1, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your late friend, Perry.
I want to tell you that I am in a condition of great darkness and suffering, and I am not able to find a way out of the darkness or to relieve myself from my tortures.
I know that you may think it strange that I did not listen to Mr. Riddle when you brought him in contact with me a short time ago, but I could not believe what he told me, or understand in what way the darkness would leave me by merely praying to God and trying to believe that there is such a thing as Divine Love, which I might obtain by letting my belief in what he said become sufficiently strong to cause me to forget the recollections of my awful deed.
I saw that he was a wonderfully bright spirit and seemed to be so very happy in his condition of belief but, nevertheless, I was not able to believe that it was the result of what he told me and so I am in the same condition that I was when I wrote you last.
My friend, for such I believe you to be or you would not be able to interest yourself in me as you have, I want to tell you that if I only again could shoot myself and by that means end my existence, I mean annihilate my spirit and soul, so that they would go into nothingness, I would gladly and quickly pull the trigger and send the bullet into that spot which would bring about the desired effect. But I realize now that I must continue to exist and to suffer for how long I don't know, but it seems to me forever and ever.
Oh, why did I do such a thing. I had no occasion to take my life so far as earthly things were concerned, for I needed nothing of the material to make life satisfactory.
Well, I will tell you, as you may know, I was, as I thought, something of a philosopher on earth and to me life was a thing to retain or put off just as I might think it had served or not its purpose, and when I felt that I could no longer do any special good to the world or to those who were near to me, I thought that there was no reason why I should longer continue the life, which was one of monotony in a certain sense. And besides, I felt that I had arrived at the height of my mental powers, and that they were on the decline and the thought that I should decrease in what I had so striven to cultivate and display to my acquaintances caused me to believe that the object of my creation had been fulfilled, and that I would gradually become not only an encumbrance, but a person to be looked upon with a kind of pity which would cause me much unhappiness.
To have others point their finger at me and say: "There goes poor Perry who used to be such a brilliant and capable man, and who is now a mere wreck of his former self intellectually. Isn't it a pity that such a man should come to a condition that he has come to."
These are some of the thoughts that entered my mind and, in addition, as I have told you, I thought that death was the end of all, and that in the grave I would know nothing and sleep in utter oblivion.
These thoughts I fed on some little while before I decided to die and the more I thought, the greater became my condition that what I had said would prove to be true. Just before I fired the fatal shot, I thought intensely of all these things and saw that what I supposed would be an end to everything was the true solution of life's decay and to mental as well as to physical decrepitude. And when I prepared to do the deed, I was never more calm in all my life. It did not require any courage on my part for conviction of the correctness of my conclusions was so strong that the question of courage was not a part of the equation.
Men may think that courage is necessity to commit suicide, but I tell you, I believe that courage or the want of courage forms no part of a man's condition of mind when he commits that deed. The mind forms its own conclusions as to the necessity or the desirability of doing the act and every other consideration or reason is ignored. The suicide is not, as a general thing, at the time of the act, a coward. I have no doubt though in bringing his mind to the condition that I have spoken of, that is in feeling that the burdens of life are too great, or that he cannot further bear the things which duty calls upon him to do, he may be and often is a coward.
I must not write more on this theme now. I am more interested in finding a way, if possible, out of this intense darkness and suffering.
I have not seen Mr. Riddle since my first interview and I do not think that I would be benefited by seeing him because, for one thing, the great contrasts in our conditions only intensifies my sufferings and, hence, I prefer to remain to myself or among spirits like myself.
You know that on earth the poor are much happier with the poor than when thrown into the company of the rich, and this because of the apparent greater happiness of the latter. And so with me. When I see Riddle in his happiness, I feel that my misery is the greater.
No, I did not see your grandmother at that time and I do not know her now. But why do you ask that question? Well, if what you say is true, I should like very much to meet her and listen to her, and if you will tell me how I can meet her, I will make the effort. I will certainly take advantage of your invitation and be with you tonight and hope that I may meet your grandmother.
How I wish that I may find what you tell me and feel the influences that you speak of. Oh, for such a consummation. Why, my dear friend, if what you promise me shall come true, I will never cease thanking you for your kindness and help.
I am astonished at what you say, for I never really believed in Jesus as you tell me of him. I could not when on earth believe in him as a God, and I thought that he was really an ideal of progressive human minds, and that as to his actual historical or earthly existence, it was a mere fable. But now you tell me that he really exists and is working in the spirit world to help the fallen and dark spirits, and that he comes to you and tells you of his love and work. Well, I won't say that I can't believe you but, I prefer to wait until I see him myself, and then if he appears to me as you say, I will be ready to believe what Riddle told me about prayer and the Divine Love. How wonderful all this is.
You surprise me more and more. Of course, I knew Ingersoll and read many of his lectures and in some things agreed with him, but when you tell me that he is now a believer in God and in Jesus and has been converted to Christianity, you again draw very strongly on my credulity, and I am afraid that if what you tell me is true, I will see so many surprising things that I will hardly know whether I am a spirit of hell or not.
I will ask him to tell me about his conversion and I will listen to him intently and will try to believe what he tells me, but when you describe it as you do, by the comparison you make with that of Paul, I am more bewildered than ever.
Tell me then, what kind of man are you to know all these things? I cannot understand you. When on earth I merely considered you as like the rest of us, but now I am told that you know things that I never thought any mortal could know. Well, astonishment upon astonishment and all, as you say, to help me and lead me to the light. Yes, that is what I want, light.
Only wait until I have had these experiences that you promise me, and I will come to you and write you a letter that you will tire of receiving. I must stop now, for you must be tired and I am. So my dear friend let me say that I thank you with all my heart and hope that I may be able to come to you again and say that what you promised me I have received.
Your friend,
R. Ross Perry
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, your late friend, Perry.
I want to tell you that I am in a condition of great darkness and suffering, and I am not able to find a way out of the darkness or to relieve myself from my tortures.
I know that you may think it strange that I did not listen to Mr. Riddle when you brought him in contact with me a short time ago, but I could not believe what he told me, or understand in what way the darkness would leave me by merely praying to God and trying to believe that there is such a thing as Divine Love, which I might obtain by letting my belief in what he said become sufficiently strong to cause me to forget the recollections of my awful deed.
I saw that he was a wonderfully bright spirit and seemed to be so very happy in his condition of belief but, nevertheless, I was not able to believe that it was the result of what he told me and so I am in the same condition that I was when I wrote you last.
My friend, for such I believe you to be or you would not be able to interest yourself in me as you have, I want to tell you that if I only again could shoot myself and by that means end my existence, I mean annihilate my spirit and soul, so that they would go into nothingness, I would gladly and quickly pull the trigger and send the bullet into that spot which would bring about the desired effect. But I realize now that I must continue to exist and to suffer for how long I don't know, but it seems to me forever and ever.
Oh, why did I do such a thing. I had no occasion to take my life so far as earthly things were concerned, for I needed nothing of the material to make life satisfactory.
Well, I will tell you, as you may know, I was, as I thought, something of a philosopher on earth and to me life was a thing to retain or put off just as I might think it had served or not its purpose, and when I felt that I could no longer do any special good to the world or to those who were near to me, I thought that there was no reason why I should longer continue the life, which was one of monotony in a certain sense. And besides, I felt that I had arrived at the height of my mental powers, and that they were on the decline and the thought that I should decrease in what I had so striven to cultivate and display to my acquaintances caused me to believe that the object of my creation had been fulfilled, and that I would gradually become not only an encumbrance, but a person to be looked upon with a kind of pity which would cause me much unhappiness.
To have others point their finger at me and say: "There goes poor Perry who used to be such a brilliant and capable man, and who is now a mere wreck of his former self intellectually. Isn't it a pity that such a man should come to a condition that he has come to."
These are some of the thoughts that entered my mind and, in addition, as I have told you, I thought that death was the end of all, and that in the grave I would know nothing and sleep in utter oblivion.
These thoughts I fed on some little while before I decided to die and the more I thought, the greater became my condition that what I had said would prove to be true. Just before I fired the fatal shot, I thought intensely of all these things and saw that what I supposed would be an end to everything was the true solution of life's decay and to mental as well as to physical decrepitude. And when I prepared to do the deed, I was never more calm in all my life. It did not require any courage on my part for conviction of the correctness of my conclusions was so strong that the question of courage was not a part of the equation.
Men may think that courage is necessity to commit suicide, but I tell you, I believe that courage or the want of courage forms no part of a man's condition of mind when he commits that deed. The mind forms its own conclusions as to the necessity or the desirability of doing the act and every other consideration or reason is ignored. The suicide is not, as a general thing, at the time of the act, a coward. I have no doubt though in bringing his mind to the condition that I have spoken of, that is in feeling that the burdens of life are too great, or that he cannot further bear the things which duty calls upon him to do, he may be and often is a coward.
I must not write more on this theme now. I am more interested in finding a way, if possible, out of this intense darkness and suffering.
I have not seen Mr. Riddle since my first interview and I do not think that I would be benefited by seeing him because, for one thing, the great contrasts in our conditions only intensifies my sufferings and, hence, I prefer to remain to myself or among spirits like myself.
You know that on earth the poor are much happier with the poor than when thrown into the company of the rich, and this because of the apparent greater happiness of the latter. And so with me. When I see Riddle in his happiness, I feel that my misery is the greater.
No, I did not see your grandmother at that time and I do not know her now. But why do you ask that question? Well, if what you say is true, I should like very much to meet her and listen to her, and if you will tell me how I can meet her, I will make the effort. I will certainly take advantage of your invitation and be with you tonight and hope that I may meet your grandmother.
How I wish that I may find what you tell me and feel the influences that you speak of. Oh, for such a consummation. Why, my dear friend, if what you promise me shall come true, I will never cease thanking you for your kindness and help.
I am astonished at what you say, for I never really believed in Jesus as you tell me of him. I could not when on earth believe in him as a God, and I thought that he was really an ideal of progressive human minds, and that as to his actual historical or earthly existence, it was a mere fable. But now you tell me that he really exists and is working in the spirit world to help the fallen and dark spirits, and that he comes to you and tells you of his love and work. Well, I won't say that I can't believe you but, I prefer to wait until I see him myself, and then if he appears to me as you say, I will be ready to believe what Riddle told me about prayer and the Divine Love. How wonderful all this is.
You surprise me more and more. Of course, I knew Ingersoll and read many of his lectures and in some things agreed with him, but when you tell me that he is now a believer in God and in Jesus and has been converted to Christianity, you again draw very strongly on my credulity, and I am afraid that if what you tell me is true, I will see so many surprising things that I will hardly know whether I am a spirit of hell or not.
I will ask him to tell me about his conversion and I will listen to him intently and will try to believe what he tells me, but when you describe it as you do, by the comparison you make with that of Paul, I am more bewildered than ever.
Tell me then, what kind of man are you to know all these things? I cannot understand you. When on earth I merely considered you as like the rest of us, but now I am told that you know things that I never thought any mortal could know. Well, astonishment upon astonishment and all, as you say, to help me and lead me to the light. Yes, that is what I want, light.
Only wait until I have had these experiences that you promise me, and I will come to you and write you a letter that you will tire of receiving. I must stop now, for you must be tired and I am. So my dear friend let me say that I thank you with all my heart and hope that I may be able to come to you again and say that what you promised me I have received.
Your friend,
R. Ross Perry
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Julius Caesar, the Former Emperor of Rome, Writes That He is in Darkness and Suffering From His Wicked Deeds on Earth
September 16, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am the spirit of one who when on earth was called Caesar. Well, there was only one real Caesar - all others by that name were merely imitations. I was Julius Caesar and was the Emperor of Rome and the conqueror of the Gauls and of the Egyptians.
I am now in a condition of darkness, and also suffering, from my deeds on earth, which were very wicked and numerous.
I am not an emperor now, but am a spirit who is in the condition of one who has no one to do him reverence - not the meanest of my former slaves deign to bow the knee or salute me as their superior. And why! Because in the spirit world a man is as his soul development makes him, and mine has been very much retarded by my want of belief and faith, as I now see.
I merely want to tell you this that you may know that no position on earth can determine the position of the person when he comes into the spirit world. I mean that the position of the man on earth does not in the slightest degree influence the position of this same man in the spirit world. Many of my slaves are higher in their development and in their spirituality than I am. Well, that may be, but I am in the condition that I say I am; I don't know of any such spirit and doubt if there be any.
I see some bright spirits and have asked for Professor Salyards, and find him to be a most beautiful and bright spirit, and I am inclined to listen to what he may say. He says that he was well acquainted with my history on earth, as he had read many books dealing with my life and exploits; and he is glad to meet me and show me the way to a higher and happier condition of existence. I rather like him and believe that I will go with him and listen to him.
Well, I will try.
So I will say goodnight and good luck. I am your friend now, since you have shown such interest in me.
Julius Caesar
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am the spirit of one who when on earth was called Caesar. Well, there was only one real Caesar - all others by that name were merely imitations. I was Julius Caesar and was the Emperor of Rome and the conqueror of the Gauls and of the Egyptians.
I am now in a condition of darkness, and also suffering, from my deeds on earth, which were very wicked and numerous.
I am not an emperor now, but am a spirit who is in the condition of one who has no one to do him reverence - not the meanest of my former slaves deign to bow the knee or salute me as their superior. And why! Because in the spirit world a man is as his soul development makes him, and mine has been very much retarded by my want of belief and faith, as I now see.
I merely want to tell you this that you may know that no position on earth can determine the position of the person when he comes into the spirit world. I mean that the position of the man on earth does not in the slightest degree influence the position of this same man in the spirit world. Many of my slaves are higher in their development and in their spirituality than I am. Well, that may be, but I am in the condition that I say I am; I don't know of any such spirit and doubt if there be any.
I see some bright spirits and have asked for Professor Salyards, and find him to be a most beautiful and bright spirit, and I am inclined to listen to what he may say. He says that he was well acquainted with my history on earth, as he had read many books dealing with my life and exploits; and he is glad to meet me and show me the way to a higher and happier condition of existence. I rather like him and believe that I will go with him and listen to him.
Well, I will try.
So I will say goodnight and good luck. I am your friend now, since you have shown such interest in me.
Julius Caesar
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Hugh T. Taggart Writes That He is Grateful for the Advice James' Gave to Him and He's Receiving God's Love and Progressing Out of Darkness
July 22, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington D.C.
I am here, too - Hugh Taggart:
As Mackey said, I am grateful for what you have done for me, and the great light that has come to me by reason of your advice, and the teachings and help of your band, and especially the deep sympathy and sisterly love of that beautiful wife of yours. Why, Padgett, I want to tell you that the most fortunate things of my whole existence were my acquaintance with you and the wonderful results that flowed from it. I sometimes wonder how all of this could have come about.
When on earth, while I knew that you believed in spiritualism, yet, I never realized what your belief and experience meant to you, and what a great help it would be to me when the time came for me to become a spirit.
I will never forget our first argument after I became a spirit on this great question of how I might be rescued from my awful condition of suffering and darkness, and with what earnestness you maintained the position that you took and tried to show me that there was a way by which I could get light and happiness and relief from my torments. Mackey and I often talk about it, and we wonder that you could have had such knowledge of these spiritual matters and such faith to maintain the truth of their existence. But you were right and your faith was not misplaced.
Old friend, I thank you again, and God bless you!
I am now in a condition of light and suffer very little and realize to a great extent that there is such a thing as the Love of the Father, and that it may be mine. I pray and my faith is becoming stronger all the time. The great proof to me, aside from what I see in the condition of other spirits who claim to have this Love, is my own change in soul happiness and in desire to progress to the higher spheres, which your band tells me exists and that I may find my home there if I will only pray more to the Father and let my faith enlarge.
To me this Love and faith is a new revelation. Of course, when on earth I heard of God's Love and of faith, but to me they meant nothing more than the rhapsodies of the enthusiastic religionists, whose emotions had overcome their normal reasoning powers - a will o' the wisp - as it were.
But now I know the reality of these things and I find that the emotions are in things pertaining to the soul more certain leaders than are the reasoning faculties. I am quite happy at times, and I hope to make such progress in my soul development as to be happy all the time.
You are my true friend and I love you as a brother now.
Well, they are still in darkness, but have progressed some little. The great disappointment which Harvey experienced when he came over seems to have such a baleful influence on him, that it is almost impossible at this time for him to reach out and try to grasp the truth of the existence of this Love. But we are trying to help him, and he is commencing to wonder at our improved appearance and to think that maybe we know what we tell him to be the cause of the change.
Mac is still in darkness, and it seems hard for him to awaken to the fact that there can be any other condition that he may have. He is very hard to reason with and does not seem to have much desire to have his condition change.
Well, I will not write more tonight. I saw some spirits writing to you but did not know them, except Jesus. I know him and I could never forget him for there are none like him in grandeur and beauty and love.
So my dear friend, let me again express my gratitude and say with all my heart, that I am
Your grateful,
Hugh T. Taggart
Received by James Padgett
Washington D.C.
I am here, too - Hugh Taggart:
As Mackey said, I am grateful for what you have done for me, and the great light that has come to me by reason of your advice, and the teachings and help of your band, and especially the deep sympathy and sisterly love of that beautiful wife of yours. Why, Padgett, I want to tell you that the most fortunate things of my whole existence were my acquaintance with you and the wonderful results that flowed from it. I sometimes wonder how all of this could have come about.
When on earth, while I knew that you believed in spiritualism, yet, I never realized what your belief and experience meant to you, and what a great help it would be to me when the time came for me to become a spirit.
I will never forget our first argument after I became a spirit on this great question of how I might be rescued from my awful condition of suffering and darkness, and with what earnestness you maintained the position that you took and tried to show me that there was a way by which I could get light and happiness and relief from my torments. Mackey and I often talk about it, and we wonder that you could have had such knowledge of these spiritual matters and such faith to maintain the truth of their existence. But you were right and your faith was not misplaced.
Old friend, I thank you again, and God bless you!
I am now in a condition of light and suffer very little and realize to a great extent that there is such a thing as the Love of the Father, and that it may be mine. I pray and my faith is becoming stronger all the time. The great proof to me, aside from what I see in the condition of other spirits who claim to have this Love, is my own change in soul happiness and in desire to progress to the higher spheres, which your band tells me exists and that I may find my home there if I will only pray more to the Father and let my faith enlarge.
To me this Love and faith is a new revelation. Of course, when on earth I heard of God's Love and of faith, but to me they meant nothing more than the rhapsodies of the enthusiastic religionists, whose emotions had overcome their normal reasoning powers - a will o' the wisp - as it were.
But now I know the reality of these things and I find that the emotions are in things pertaining to the soul more certain leaders than are the reasoning faculties. I am quite happy at times, and I hope to make such progress in my soul development as to be happy all the time.
You are my true friend and I love you as a brother now.
Well, they are still in darkness, but have progressed some little. The great disappointment which Harvey experienced when he came over seems to have such a baleful influence on him, that it is almost impossible at this time for him to reach out and try to grasp the truth of the existence of this Love. But we are trying to help him, and he is commencing to wonder at our improved appearance and to think that maybe we know what we tell him to be the cause of the change.
Mac is still in darkness, and it seems hard for him to awaken to the fact that there can be any other condition that he may have. He is very hard to reason with and does not seem to have much desire to have his condition change.
Well, I will not write more tonight. I saw some spirits writing to you but did not know them, except Jesus. I know him and I could never forget him for there are none like him in grandeur and beauty and love.
So my dear friend, let me again express my gratitude and say with all my heart, that I am
Your grateful,
Hugh T. Taggart
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Joe Shellington, a Friend of James E. Padgett, Writes About His Experience of Dying and Finding Himself in Semi-Darkness and Suffering
June 17, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Joe Shellington.
Well, I am glad to be able to write to you and let you know that I am in the land of the living. I have waited a long time to write to you but, as your band would not consent to my writing, I had to wait until it was agreeable to them, as well as to you.
I am in a state of semi-darkness and am suffering somewhat from the recollections of my life on earth, but thanks to your wife, I am commencing to see the light and to learn the way out of my sufferings.
When I found myself dying, I thought that I was going to sleep and that my body was resting from the cares and pains which my sufferings had caused, and when my spirit was separated from my body, I hovered around for a long time expecting that when my body should feel refreshed I would go into it again and continue my life on earth. But after waiting a long time and failing to see my body awaken, I commenced to wonder what had taken place and, at last, came to the conclusion that I was a dead one, and that no more would I walk on earth as a mortal.
Well, as soon as I realized that fact, I looked around and saw my mother and father, and several others that I knew on earth, and they told me that I had died, and was then a spirit, and would never more go into my body. And I commenced to ask questions and wanted to know where I was and what place I was in. They told me that I was in the spirit world, and in what is called the earth plane, and that my future home would be in that plane until I had by repentance and suffering progressed to a higher one.
My mother, who is a very beautiful spirit, tried to comfort me and told me that I must now think of the things that belong to the spirit world, and not let my thoughts run on the things that I had been interested in while a mortal. But while I considered her advice and was impressed with what she said, yet, I could not follow her advice, as I was compelled by something - which I did not understand - to give my thoughts to the affairs of earth, and especially to my wife and daughter. I was with them nearly all the time for many long day, and tried to speak to them and advise them what they should do, but they would not pay any attention to me. Of course, I know now that they did not know that I was present and did not hear my voice; but at the time, I thought it very strange, for they were just as real and unchanged to me as when I was with them in the body.
I never fully realized what my position was until long months after I died, and I could not think of anything but them at first and was with them all the time. I saw them sorrowing and weeping because of my death and tried so hard to comfort them, but all to no purpose. I, at last, saw that it was utterly hopeless for me to make them feel that I was with them, and so I sought for light or information among my spirit friends, and sought from them to know how I could reach my dear ones; but I could get no consolation, as they told me that it was only through the instrumentality or help of some earth medium could I ever be able to communicate with them or let them know that I was still alive and loved them just as I did when on earth.
So one time in my wanderings, I entered the circle of the medium where you heard me talk to you, and then I was happy because I thought that now I would be able to reach my wife and daughter. But I was disappointed, for you never told them that I had talked to you, and wanted them to know that I was anxious to talk to them. I suppose you thought that they would not believe, and so neglected to tell them. But you were mistaken in this, as they would have believed you had you told them.
My wife knows something of spiritualism, though she has not much faith in it, and while she may not absolutely have believed, yet, she would have had interest enough in it to have sought for the opportunity to learn more and, if possible, to hear me speak to her. So while you disappointed me, yet, I cannot altogether blame you.
But, old friend, do not fail to let her know that I have written to you tonight, and if not too much trouble, I would like for you to send her a copy of this message.
I still love her and am with her very often, and try my best to make her feel my presence, and realize that I am doing my best to comfort her. If she only knew how dear she is to me and that my whole heart burns with love for her, she would be happier, for I believe that she will be mine when she comes over, and through all eternity. So do not fail to send her a copy of this message.
When I passed over, I was not one particle afraid and while I was not just in condition to know what was taking place, yet, there was no dread or apprehension of my being in any way harmed. I arose, as I have said, from my body, but did not leave it and stayed with it and with my loved ones even until it was buried and then continued with my dear wife.
After I realized that I was a spirit, I found myself in a dark atmosphere surrounded by dark spirits who, I supposed, were like myself. My mother, while she often came to me, did not live with me but, as she told me, in a higher sphere where much happiness exists.
I was not happy and I suffered very much from my recollections of my earth life and had no fixed home. All spirits in a condition like mine have to roam about with no place that they can call home. Often have I longed for a home but found none, and even now I have one that is not very beautiful; but I am progressing and light is coming to me and my sufferings are decreasing. I rather expected to find myself in Hell, as I was not a Christian, and as I was taught that all who are not Christians and believe in Jesus must go to Hell. But I have not seen that Hell, and I do not believe that there is any such place. Yet, the sufferings which we all have creates a Hell enough for any spirit who wants such a Hell.
Well, I am now learning to pray to God and to believe in His Love, and the more I pray and the stronger my belief becomes, the more light I see and the less I suffer. Your wife came to me at about the time I spoke to you at the medium's, and tried to help me, and she has been with me many times since and has helped me very much. She is a beautiful spirit and seems filled with the Love of God, as she says. So I am seeking that Love, and I believe that I will soon get enough of it to get out of my present condition.
I thank you so much for this opportunity, and when it is agreeable I will come and write to you again. I will not take up more of your time tonight. So with my kindest regards and many thanks, I am
Your old friend,
Joe Shellington
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Joe Shellington.
Well, I am glad to be able to write to you and let you know that I am in the land of the living. I have waited a long time to write to you but, as your band would not consent to my writing, I had to wait until it was agreeable to them, as well as to you.
I am in a state of semi-darkness and am suffering somewhat from the recollections of my life on earth, but thanks to your wife, I am commencing to see the light and to learn the way out of my sufferings.
When I found myself dying, I thought that I was going to sleep and that my body was resting from the cares and pains which my sufferings had caused, and when my spirit was separated from my body, I hovered around for a long time expecting that when my body should feel refreshed I would go into it again and continue my life on earth. But after waiting a long time and failing to see my body awaken, I commenced to wonder what had taken place and, at last, came to the conclusion that I was a dead one, and that no more would I walk on earth as a mortal.
Well, as soon as I realized that fact, I looked around and saw my mother and father, and several others that I knew on earth, and they told me that I had died, and was then a spirit, and would never more go into my body. And I commenced to ask questions and wanted to know where I was and what place I was in. They told me that I was in the spirit world, and in what is called the earth plane, and that my future home would be in that plane until I had by repentance and suffering progressed to a higher one.
My mother, who is a very beautiful spirit, tried to comfort me and told me that I must now think of the things that belong to the spirit world, and not let my thoughts run on the things that I had been interested in while a mortal. But while I considered her advice and was impressed with what she said, yet, I could not follow her advice, as I was compelled by something - which I did not understand - to give my thoughts to the affairs of earth, and especially to my wife and daughter. I was with them nearly all the time for many long day, and tried to speak to them and advise them what they should do, but they would not pay any attention to me. Of course, I know now that they did not know that I was present and did not hear my voice; but at the time, I thought it very strange, for they were just as real and unchanged to me as when I was with them in the body.
I never fully realized what my position was until long months after I died, and I could not think of anything but them at first and was with them all the time. I saw them sorrowing and weeping because of my death and tried so hard to comfort them, but all to no purpose. I, at last, saw that it was utterly hopeless for me to make them feel that I was with them, and so I sought for light or information among my spirit friends, and sought from them to know how I could reach my dear ones; but I could get no consolation, as they told me that it was only through the instrumentality or help of some earth medium could I ever be able to communicate with them or let them know that I was still alive and loved them just as I did when on earth.
So one time in my wanderings, I entered the circle of the medium where you heard me talk to you, and then I was happy because I thought that now I would be able to reach my wife and daughter. But I was disappointed, for you never told them that I had talked to you, and wanted them to know that I was anxious to talk to them. I suppose you thought that they would not believe, and so neglected to tell them. But you were mistaken in this, as they would have believed you had you told them.
My wife knows something of spiritualism, though she has not much faith in it, and while she may not absolutely have believed, yet, she would have had interest enough in it to have sought for the opportunity to learn more and, if possible, to hear me speak to her. So while you disappointed me, yet, I cannot altogether blame you.
But, old friend, do not fail to let her know that I have written to you tonight, and if not too much trouble, I would like for you to send her a copy of this message.
I still love her and am with her very often, and try my best to make her feel my presence, and realize that I am doing my best to comfort her. If she only knew how dear she is to me and that my whole heart burns with love for her, she would be happier, for I believe that she will be mine when she comes over, and through all eternity. So do not fail to send her a copy of this message.
When I passed over, I was not one particle afraid and while I was not just in condition to know what was taking place, yet, there was no dread or apprehension of my being in any way harmed. I arose, as I have said, from my body, but did not leave it and stayed with it and with my loved ones even until it was buried and then continued with my dear wife.
After I realized that I was a spirit, I found myself in a dark atmosphere surrounded by dark spirits who, I supposed, were like myself. My mother, while she often came to me, did not live with me but, as she told me, in a higher sphere where much happiness exists.
I was not happy and I suffered very much from my recollections of my earth life and had no fixed home. All spirits in a condition like mine have to roam about with no place that they can call home. Often have I longed for a home but found none, and even now I have one that is not very beautiful; but I am progressing and light is coming to me and my sufferings are decreasing. I rather expected to find myself in Hell, as I was not a Christian, and as I was taught that all who are not Christians and believe in Jesus must go to Hell. But I have not seen that Hell, and I do not believe that there is any such place. Yet, the sufferings which we all have creates a Hell enough for any spirit who wants such a Hell.
Well, I am now learning to pray to God and to believe in His Love, and the more I pray and the stronger my belief becomes, the more light I see and the less I suffer. Your wife came to me at about the time I spoke to you at the medium's, and tried to help me, and she has been with me many times since and has helped me very much. She is a beautiful spirit and seems filled with the Love of God, as she says. So I am seeking that Love, and I believe that I will soon get enough of it to get out of my present condition.
I thank you so much for this opportunity, and when it is agreeable I will come and write to you again. I will not take up more of your time tonight. So with my kindest regards and many thanks, I am
Your old friend,
Joe Shellington
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Helen Writes that Ann Rollins Will Help Queen Elizabeth I of England Get Out of Darkness
May 12, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Helen.
Well, sweetheart, you have had a long meeting tonight and are tired and must not write more.
Yes, it was a spirit who was once a queen, but she is so poor now that there are none to do her reverence. Your mother will help her, though, and she will get out of her darkness. She has long years of remorse and suffering and is in condition to grasp the truth. She is like a drowning woman catching at a straw, but in her case it will not be a straw but the true Love of the Father that she may get.
Well, I love you with all my heart and soul and will watch over you tonight as you sleep and try to make you have pleasant dreams. So until we meet again in communication,
I am and will be your own true and loving
Helen
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Helen.
Well, sweetheart, you have had a long meeting tonight and are tired and must not write more.
Yes, it was a spirit who was once a queen, but she is so poor now that there are none to do her reverence. Your mother will help her, though, and she will get out of her darkness. She has long years of remorse and suffering and is in condition to grasp the truth. She is like a drowning woman catching at a straw, but in her case it will not be a straw but the true Love of the Father that she may get.
Well, I love you with all my heart and soul and will watch over you tonight as you sleep and try to make you have pleasant dreams. So until we meet again in communication,
I am and will be your own true and loving
Helen
Friday, July 6, 2012
Queen Elizabeth I of England Writes That She is in Darkness and Suffering and Seeks Help
May 12, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Queen Elizabeth I of England.
I have been here several times but have never before been able to get the chance to write to you, and now that I have, do not disappoint me in my hope that you may help me.
Well, I was a very bad woman on earth ,as I now see the true relation of things and deeds and am suffering from the memory of those things. I was looked upon as a creature of the divine favor and could, therefore, do no wrong, and that whatever I said or did must be obeyed and followed by my subjects and others who lived within my dominions.
I lived a life that was not in accordance with the laws of morality or of God as they now appear to me; and when I tell you that, although I was a single woman, yet, had my lovers to gratify my passions and to please my caprices, you will understand that I was a wicked woman and that those are the things that now cause my sufferings and darkness. I am not a spirit who thinks that because I was a ruler that, therefore, I could do no wrong. I knew at the time that many things I did were wrong and, consequently, my sufferings have become so much the greater.
Many a pour soul has been sent to damnation by my commands, a damnation on earth as well as here. Even murder I was guilty of, although it may have had a legalized form, but it was murder nevertheless, and I am suffering the penalties. Why, some of my truest and best friends in moments of jealousy and envy, I sent to the block to afterwards bitterly regret my deed. Oh, I tell you that a queenly crown makes no difference in the penalty that must be paid for evil deeds. Many a humble subject of mine is now where I cannot go, and where they find happiness and love, as I am told.
I loved once truly and deeply, but I sacrificed the object of my love through pique and what I wanted in my blind rage to have him do, and he would not, and how bitterly I regretted the deed and suffered even while on earth. Yet, I was to all outward appearances callous and without feeling. But God knows how my heart bled and how my very soul was wracked with remorse and torture. But I was a queen and had no right to have the feelings of a human being. I loved and love had to be hid. He knew it and died in the knowledge that love wept while I killed him. Sometimes I hope that this love will meet again with the love of the victim and be one throughout all eternity.
Well, I will not relate the vast number of evil deeds that I did, but only say that as my opportunity for committing evil, without fear of punishment, was great, so the number of my deeds was great. But I have suffered in darkness and torment and love has been absent from me all these years of the travail of my soul. I have lived alone, as I saw no pleasures in what other spirits who lived near me were engaged in.
When I first entered the spirit world, I was still a queen as I believed and many of my subjects who had become spirits and knew me still believed I was their queen and worshiped me as such; but as time passed they saw that while on earth I may have been of divine creation, yet, as a spirit I was without any evidence of divine right and no better than themselves, and they soon ceased to look upon me as superior to themselves and as is usual, as you on earth say, they went to the other extreme and treated me with neglect and even taunted me for having been on earth a fraud and deception. I soon hated them all, and so sought my consolation in silence and isolation.
What a mockery is nobility on earth and what a leveler is the spirit world!
I many times have wished that they had let me remain the simple country girl and not made me the queen of a great nation. I can now see that if my life had been that of a subject living in God's pure and uncontaminated country air, I would now be a much happier spirit. But it is now too late. As I made my bed, I must lie in it, and there is no remedy.
But yet when despair and darkness come to overwhelm us there, yet, seems some good Providence which gives us a little ray of hope and even though it comes to us as a glint of sunlight yet it comes, and we sometimes think that in the future, we know not when, there may be some relief for us. And so that glint of hope comes to me sometimes, and I feel that God has not forsaken me altogether. I have seen spirits made happier by coming to you and so I came with just that little spark of hope telling me that you might help me and, if you can, please do so.
I was Elizabeth, Queen of England, and died in 1603 a little-mourned woman.
Yes, I will do as you say. Yes, I see the beautiful spirits. I see your mother and she says that she will take me with her and show me the way to light and happiness and will love me, as God loves me as He does all His children. So I am going with her and now. I want to say that as you are my true friend and well-wisher, I believe what you told me and want you to think kindly of me as not many do.
So with my thanks, I will say goodnight.
Elizabeth I of England
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, Queen Elizabeth I of England.
I have been here several times but have never before been able to get the chance to write to you, and now that I have, do not disappoint me in my hope that you may help me.
Well, I was a very bad woman on earth ,as I now see the true relation of things and deeds and am suffering from the memory of those things. I was looked upon as a creature of the divine favor and could, therefore, do no wrong, and that whatever I said or did must be obeyed and followed by my subjects and others who lived within my dominions.
I lived a life that was not in accordance with the laws of morality or of God as they now appear to me; and when I tell you that, although I was a single woman, yet, had my lovers to gratify my passions and to please my caprices, you will understand that I was a wicked woman and that those are the things that now cause my sufferings and darkness. I am not a spirit who thinks that because I was a ruler that, therefore, I could do no wrong. I knew at the time that many things I did were wrong and, consequently, my sufferings have become so much the greater.
Many a pour soul has been sent to damnation by my commands, a damnation on earth as well as here. Even murder I was guilty of, although it may have had a legalized form, but it was murder nevertheless, and I am suffering the penalties. Why, some of my truest and best friends in moments of jealousy and envy, I sent to the block to afterwards bitterly regret my deed. Oh, I tell you that a queenly crown makes no difference in the penalty that must be paid for evil deeds. Many a humble subject of mine is now where I cannot go, and where they find happiness and love, as I am told.
I loved once truly and deeply, but I sacrificed the object of my love through pique and what I wanted in my blind rage to have him do, and he would not, and how bitterly I regretted the deed and suffered even while on earth. Yet, I was to all outward appearances callous and without feeling. But God knows how my heart bled and how my very soul was wracked with remorse and torture. But I was a queen and had no right to have the feelings of a human being. I loved and love had to be hid. He knew it and died in the knowledge that love wept while I killed him. Sometimes I hope that this love will meet again with the love of the victim and be one throughout all eternity.
Well, I will not relate the vast number of evil deeds that I did, but only say that as my opportunity for committing evil, without fear of punishment, was great, so the number of my deeds was great. But I have suffered in darkness and torment and love has been absent from me all these years of the travail of my soul. I have lived alone, as I saw no pleasures in what other spirits who lived near me were engaged in.
When I first entered the spirit world, I was still a queen as I believed and many of my subjects who had become spirits and knew me still believed I was their queen and worshiped me as such; but as time passed they saw that while on earth I may have been of divine creation, yet, as a spirit I was without any evidence of divine right and no better than themselves, and they soon ceased to look upon me as superior to themselves and as is usual, as you on earth say, they went to the other extreme and treated me with neglect and even taunted me for having been on earth a fraud and deception. I soon hated them all, and so sought my consolation in silence and isolation.
What a mockery is nobility on earth and what a leveler is the spirit world!
I many times have wished that they had let me remain the simple country girl and not made me the queen of a great nation. I can now see that if my life had been that of a subject living in God's pure and uncontaminated country air, I would now be a much happier spirit. But it is now too late. As I made my bed, I must lie in it, and there is no remedy.
But yet when despair and darkness come to overwhelm us there, yet, seems some good Providence which gives us a little ray of hope and even though it comes to us as a glint of sunlight yet it comes, and we sometimes think that in the future, we know not when, there may be some relief for us. And so that glint of hope comes to me sometimes, and I feel that God has not forsaken me altogether. I have seen spirits made happier by coming to you and so I came with just that little spark of hope telling me that you might help me and, if you can, please do so.
I was Elizabeth, Queen of England, and died in 1603 a little-mourned woman.
Yes, I will do as you say. Yes, I see the beautiful spirits. I see your mother and she says that she will take me with her and show me the way to light and happiness and will love me, as God loves me as He does all His children. So I am going with her and now. I want to say that as you are my true friend and well-wisher, I believe what you told me and want you to think kindly of me as not many do.
So with my thanks, I will say goodnight.
Elizabeth I of England
Thursday, May 3, 2012
George Harvey, a Former Washington, D.C. Resident and Restaurant Owner, Asks James for Help, for He is in Hell in Despair and Darkness
January 12, 1915
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, George W. Harvey.
I lived in Washington and kept a restaurant on Pennsylvania Avenue and Tenth Street. I am in the spirit world and in the earth plane and in Hell also. I am not happy for I am in darkness and despair.
Yes, I did, but that did not keep me from Hell. The priests mislead me, and they are here, too. Damn them. Can you help me any, if you can do so?
Yes, I remember Taggart, but he is here too and can't help himself, for I see him sometimes and he tells that he is in a condition of suffering, too. No, but he is not in condition to help me, even if I do see him.
You must help me if you can. I don't know but I want help from someone. I know they say so, but I don't believe them, for they can't help themselves. No, I don't know them. I will see him at once and ask him, and tell him that I want to know. So good-night.
Your friend,
George W. Harvey
Harvey Family Tree
Received by James Padgett
Washington, D.C.
I am here, George W. Harvey.
I lived in Washington and kept a restaurant on Pennsylvania Avenue and Tenth Street. I am in the spirit world and in the earth plane and in Hell also. I am not happy for I am in darkness and despair.
Yes, I did, but that did not keep me from Hell. The priests mislead me, and they are here, too. Damn them. Can you help me any, if you can do so?
Yes, I remember Taggart, but he is here too and can't help himself, for I see him sometimes and he tells that he is in a condition of suffering, too. No, but he is not in condition to help me, even if I do see him.
You must help me if you can. I don't know but I want help from someone. I know they say so, but I don't believe them, for they can't help themselves. No, I don't know them. I will see him at once and ask him, and tell him that I want to know. So good-night.
Your friend,
George W. Harvey
Harvey Family Tree
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